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| 11:49pm 14/02/2005 |
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You Are A Romantic |
You are more romantic than 80% of the population.
You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to.
Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you.
Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted.
Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do! |
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| list the cities and towns you've lived in (not just visited), and post them in your LJ. |
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| 07:04pm 08/02/2005 |
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mood:  avoidant
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(in approximate order, since birth)
Fargo, ND
Flagstaff, AZ
Tuscon, AZ
winslow, AZ
Yuma, AZ
Window Rock, AZ
Butte (?), UT
Highland, IL
Marine, IL
Winona, AZ
Parks, AZ
Bemidgji, MN
(some name with a lake), MN
Pocahontas, IL
Cambridge, MA
I move around a lot. With the exception of high school, I never stayed in a school for longer than 4 consecutive years. Additionally, I never stayed in an individual home for more than 3 years.
I am a wanderer. But I have a home now. I just wish that my home's owner would quit rejecting me. And part of the reason that it is is due to the in part to the fact that I have no real roots, no sense of committment and accept little help (much less ask for it).
This making me rather depressed. Sometimes I worry so much. And then I have to stop thinking about it, otherwise I would collapse into tears and lament at my fate, at my curse.
I have avoidance issues. It takes so much to say this, to admit this that I can barely see the screen anymore with my tears stinging my eyes.
What am I doing with my life? Why am I here? I have no directon, no goal, nothing of worth to my name and I am so scared.
I want to be fixed, but I'm too frightened and too tired to try to deal with it. And thus I remain static, and somehow running, always running. I just want to stop and live in some fashion that doesn't make me want to be not me. |
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| 01:53am 11/01/2005 |
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mood:  sick
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My laptop is so shiny, I'm watching TV in its reflection. |
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| a psuedo meme |
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| 06:47pm 07/01/2005 |
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mood:  nostalgic
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1. Go To Mapquest.com
2. Click on Directions
3. Enter your Current Address and the Address of your Childhood Home (or at least the town if you don't remember the exact address)
4. Put the time and distance in a post like this.
5. Don't forget to repost these directions. (Not the door to door ones!)
Total Est. Time: 38 hours, 23 minutes
Total Est. Distance: 2544.26 miles
Jesus. That's so far. Mew. I miss my home. |
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| I <3 my aunt. |
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| 10:22pm 04/01/2005 |
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mood:  chipper music: Wolfenstein gamers
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The iBook came in the mail today. Oh, yeah, it's slick and happy and cool and sexy and people like it. "Whose is that?" "It's mine." *dances around happily*
It is soon time to put Sweet Pea away. I need a new name for the iBook. Num? Hmmm....
I have yarn, yarn yarn yarn. Lots o yarn. Yay for yarn.
Clapotis is my near knitting future, in Silk Garden color 205 (such an awesome colorway).
Continuing obsession: Must get batteries to hook up the mousie, esp. so Opera is super happy. |
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| Sheep Shawl, Stage 1 |
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| 08:29pm 02/01/2005 |
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mood:  awake
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I have nearly completed the final repeat of the first stage of the sheep shawl. "Sunshine Lace" was a bit unexpected, as I didn't see the sunshine part of it until I finished at least a repeat.
( 3 pictures here )
I like how it's turning out, but honestly, I can't wait until I'm done with this part of the lace pattern. It is starting to bore me. :-) |
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| 03:13am 02/01/2005 |
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I need a damn haircut. And I should wash my hair more often. Maybe I'll have less split ends that way.
Tom Hanks is a very hansome man. *coos* He has a great voice.
"What's this? It's from Seattle."
hehe
I'm giggling so much. "Before the ho." |
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| 10:46pm 01/01/2005 |
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mood:  horny
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I have kissed someone (in bold):( Read more... )
One. More. Day.
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"Saved!" was funny. Laughably sometimes. |
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| Right now, I am the coolest person I know. |
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| 06:09pm 01/01/2005 |
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mood: impressed music: Ain't No Mountain...
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100% bulky Cashmere sweater from Ann Taylor = $99 is MINE! I feel so soft and wonderful and luscious. Dude, that's 60% off. w00t. The first thing I thought when I saw it: Ooo, bulky! I could take it apart and make a sweater out of it. *bonk* Make one? It IS one! *dance of shopper's joy* Must get cream one in case I want to dye it (only other choice was fuscia).
:-D! :-D!
I can't stop smiling right now.
Other things bought: button-down shirts, more sweaters, more bras. Unfortunately, I was not in the mood to try on pants - the stores were FAR too crowded.
*strokes self* Aww, yeah. I am the underhair of the goat. Mmm.
I found one lonely tetra still in the tank. He must be the hearty one. :-/ Oh, well, such is the way of things.
Up on tonight's movie agenda: "Saved!" |
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| New Year has begun |
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| 01:59am 01/01/2005 |
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mood:  bored
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Amoung the more standard type of resolutions (eat better, exercise more, spend less), I will attempt the following:
- talk to parental figures more often
- check my email more frequently
- use up more of my yarn stash
- finish projects or give up on them
- stop chewing my nails! and keep them nice
- do laundry at least every other weekend
- try to party more often (I'm a poop and no one likes me)
- save more money in the "untouchable fund"
- become less dependant, in a certain sense
Yeah, that's a big list. I'll do my best.
"Pretty in Pink" is SO 80s. Oh, man. It makes me ashamed to be born in that decade. *sigh*
New Year's was remarkably low key and I missed Fist Night's fireworks.
I would like to go shopping tomorrow, but since I have the day off, how can I expect other stored to be open. Fie on it all. *checks cambridgesidegalleria.com* Sweet!! Open from 10-6. Guess that means I should get to bed at a reasonable hour. |
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| "Winbledon" |
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| 11:52pm 29/12/2004 |
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mood:  energetic
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I am such a girl sometimes. I like romantic comedies. :-D Especially ones with British accents. *drools*
High as a kite, reciting "num num num"s and all that sweet jazz.
I can hardly type. It's been so long since I've been this happy at the end of a romantic comedy. Num! Nun! Num!
On a less brillant note, "Anchorman" was not as funny as I hoped. Yes, some parts were cool, but overall too strange. |
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| "It's pronounced Petri... like the dish." |
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| 02:12am 29/12/2004 |
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mood: chipper
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I <3 the X-Files.
Charts are surprisingly easy. Except for the whole "reverse the decreases" thing.
The sheep shawl is turning out well, now that I've decided to use bamboo and am getting gauge.
My tetras are missing. I think they might have been eaten by the goldfish. I can only find one now.
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...like the dish. *chuckles* |
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| No buyer's remose - not healthy |
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| 02:22am 28/12/2004 |
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mood:  artistic
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Actual sale day haul:
- 4 sk. black lace cashmere for Sheep Shawl
- 12 sk. various colors Koigu Knitter's Painter's Pallet (KPPM) for shawls (lotus? peace? charlotte's web?)
- 3 sk. Noro Kureyon #88 (unknown use - perhaps bag, scarf, oh, I don't know)
- 1 sk. of Colinette's Isis in "Jewel" (for petting)
- 1 sk. cream Lush (for DNA scarf)
- 1 sk. Cool Stuff (for some gift to someone)
- Vogue Knitting
- Plymouth Bamboo Interchangeable Bamboo set
- Denise Interchangeable set
Note: no green novelty yarn, 2 less Kureyon, no Silk Garden (I was sorely tempted), no mohair (whew. too much already)
Note 2: I managed tp spend only 5.36 USD of my own real money on this. Bless store credit from bonuses.
Note 3: Yes, I did get two interchageable needle sets. This will be a highly scientific experiment in which I test the merits of both and will duly report my findings in a comprehensive review. To make this all the more complete, I do require the Boye Needlemaster Set and any other inchangeable sets you make have/know about. Yup.
And I figure that if I don't like one of them, I can resell them and maybe make a tidy profit. I am so terrible. >:-)
Sheep Shawl: I have finished my swatch. I found that I got guage on the Denise size 6, but I liked the fabric best on the size 5 Addi Turbos. This presents a problem, as I get 6S/in on the Turbos, and 5S/in on the Denises. The pattern calls for 5/in. Damn it all to hell. I think my yarn may be too fine. Blast. However, I may stick with the Turbos and try a size 6 when I get them from the store tomorrow on my lunch break. Hmph. If that works out, I'm exchanging my needles. And i guess that since it's a shawl, a few lost inches (although it may be a sizable amount) will not amount to much. I just don't want to give up on it.
Note to non-crafty types: I'm sorry if my journal has sounded like a knitting journal exclusively. Mind you, there is little else in my life right now, unless you count my watching of a bazillion movies.
"Mona Lisa Smile" was okay. I don't know what I expected, but I wanted better at the end of it all. It also could be due to the fact that I wasn't entirely paying attention.
Jay's leaving for FL tomorrow, so I may be mildly despondent soon. Num.
I really need to clean the room. |
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| 03:05am 27/12/2004 |
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I can't fall asleep. I appreciate all the effort that you're making, MIT Grounds, but it's just gonna get snowed over all the morning anyways. *whines* |
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| Tomorrow is Sale Day at Woolcott |
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| 06:15pm 26/12/2004 |
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My anticipated haul:
(4) 2-ply black cashmere = 116
(1) Isis in "Jewel" = 23
(7) various KPPM = 77
(1) cream Lush = 10
(10) Portrait in green way = 90
(3) green novelty = 27
(5) Kureyon #88 = 42.5
(2) various Cascade 220 = 14
= (w/discount) 238.7
Hmph. I don't think I want to blow all my bonuses like that. I'll have to continue to think about it.
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| Too much noise. |
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| 06:27am 26/12/2004 |
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mood:  exhausted music: yay! no more Xmas music!!
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Yestersay was too noisey. All the traffic, the crowds in the restaurant, the T, watching "Phantom of the Opera"... I felt completely lambasted.
And so I fell asleep early enough so that I got more sleep than normal, even waking up at 6 am because the bathroom was calling my name. That and I had a horrendous headache. Hopefully that will go away.
Since I'll be working at noon, I'm toying with the idea of going shopping at the variously early openening stores. I do need clothes, but I feel very weird if I plan to spend too much money. I guess I'm slightly confused right now. Oh, well. I tried. |
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| WOW! My family loves me eventhough we never talk.... *sigh* |
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| 02:53pm 25/12/2004 |
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mood:  ashamed music: Sleigh Ride (Instrumental Concert Band) - horse whinny!
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I got presents!! :-D
I haven't opened the last box yet - don't know what's inside. Hmmm..... I hope it's clothes!
Haul so far: a Legolas TTT poster (how embarassing for me - they knew!), a strangely jiggly clown fish, a large AE moose with backpack (his), and a homemade needle case. How sweet! Mew!
EDIT: Like, w00t! I got a bathrobe. Sweet! and it's pretty and purple and now I don't have to feel naked on the way to my showers.
EDIT: I'm such a nut. I heard "SVU" when the tv was advertising for "SUV"s. I was thinking to myself: how are they going to giftwrap SVU? :-? |
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| "A Christmas Story" |
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| 02:03am 25/12/2004 |
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mood:  too much Xmas music
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What a cute movie. I had never seen it all the way through in one sitting, and it's much better that way. For a long time, I just couldn't watch it because it annoyed me too much. What wonders experience makes. :-P
I have no presents. :-( A couple cards, yes, a small package and a nice book from my boss, but nothing to open today. *sigh*
I think I'll go to bed soon and try to hit the stores. I don't know if I'll be buying gifts for people. Hmph. We'll see.
Additionally, I think I want to see "The Life Aquatic" and I don't know if I should wait until some people are back or if the lines will be too long tomorrow etc.
I'll shop around for: digital camera, clothes (esp. pants and sweaters), Eyetoy, shoes, bathrobe, bras... Wow. That's quite the list.
"They looked at me as if I had lobsters growing out of my ears."
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I watched "The Red Violin" and "Terminator 3". Does anyone know if "Violin" is a true story/based on a true instrument? It's a really cool story.
T3 was predicably mediocre.
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I ate a "Hawaiian Fish Burger" at Cheesecake Factory and didn't get a dessert. I should have. *sigh* I really could use some cheesecake right now.
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Oh!!! "Home Alone" will be on tomorrow night on TBS. Can't wait. That's what I feel like: alone on Xmas. Which is true, I suppose, but not by any fault of anyone besides me.
Our generation (in college now)'s collective consciousness is affected by that movie. I've talked to other kids and it's our best source of Christmas music.
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| Worst day to lock myself out my room |
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| 10:01pm 24/12/2004 |
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mood:  cold
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Damnit damnit damnit.
I took a mini-nap right before I planned on going to Blockbuster and maybe Cheesecake Factory, and then hit the snooze button. When I finally dragged myself up, I got ready quickly and looked for the movies to exchange for a while. I was worried that I would be late, especially with the T being slow and all.
But when I got outside, I suddenly realised that I didn't have my keys or my ID or anything like that on me, much less my T pass. Swearing, I tried calling every number on the hall, trying to get someone who was also home on Xmas Eve. Damnit. No luck.
I eventually gave up and called the lock-out people, who took their sweet time getting here while I hung out in the cold. And the lock-out crew had to wait until I found my ID to show that I wasn't a complete stranger outside the room. If I had just not had to tear up the room earlier for the movies, I might have noticed the keys.
Now it's too late for returning movies. *sigh*
At least I can get food later, I guess.
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